Fact 4 of 60

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I’m ordinarilyย a thinker, hence I think about almost anything and everything on a daily basis. All it takes is one trigger factor, and there you go, my mind will do what it does best, think.

Lately, I’ve been reflectingย a lot about life in general. Why are we here? I agree, to be a healthy living soul on this planet by itself is Gods greatest gift. But what is our purpose to be here when we are tied by societal norms? Ask any individual, there’s so much they would want to do with their lives but there’s only so much they can do. And yes, we’re suppose to be thankful and appreciate the way we live our lives because that’s the way it was destined for us. But what if the only obstacle that’s in my way to live the life I’d love is a thin thread of absurd principles set by my parents supporting ludicrous social norms? You’re encircled in this peculiarity if you often hear your parentsย objecting your desires with a simple sentence or two, “No, you can’t be doing this/that because it is not practical to us. What will the relatives say? What will people say? Please don’t tarnish our dignity by executing your thoughts.” And there you go, you know nothing’s ever gonna convince them thusย all you can do is sit in one corner and cry your lungs out for not getting the support or permission you desiderate, throw tantrums for a day or two to vent out your frustrations, question why is life unfair to you, and then you’ve got no choice but to move on with life. ๐Ÿ™‚

I’m uncertain if the above applies to people from all heritage, but I’m more than assertive that it occurs to most females from an Asian Indian background. Life can’t get more conservative than it already is, trust me on this one. Cmon society, just because we are brown and born with boobs and vagina instead of a penis, do we have to be tied with a set of uptight principles? Are our lives all about growing up with restrictions from the parents, getting educated (that’s if you’re lucky), getting married before we hit the big 30 (otherwise you’ll be deemed old or maybe infertile), taking care of the husband and in laws needs, giving birth to children (really conservative in laws will demand for a boy), raise the child, grow old and say goodbye…?

I personally want to achieve more than this! I want to travel the world, I want to experience adventurous bungee jumping, skydiving, diving, etc., I want to live with the poor and experience their lifestyle, … there’s so much I want to do to test my boundaries and venture far beyond my capabilities. After all, sky’s the limit. ๐Ÿ™‚

On that account, I’ve finally decided that my first step will be to take up swimming classes meanwhile I’m unemployed. Secondly, I’m more than determined to look for a job in whatever field possible just to be able to live independently and most importantly, gain experience and knowledge. I’m aware that I’m not capable to break the framework that have been set for generations, but I’m willing to take the baby steps to be the best for myself. I’m sick of the restrictions, I’m suffocated by the restraints, I want to do what my heart desires but my hands are tied, hence I can only do the best possible for myself within the wreathe of vague customs and traditions. However, I trust that my rise today will set me freeย someday.

Wow! That’s a lengthy one for a question with six words. ๐Ÿ˜‰ Toodles!

Mind and Heart – No Chemistry

I smiled through the confusion, laughed through the euphoria, weeped through the agony… I surpassed it all because more than I want to, I had to… life’s an adventure after all. 😄

Time passes, situation turn overs, people changes … but love never fades. I trust that each and every person that comes into your lives comes in it for a reason and there’s no way they’ll depart without leaving a footprint in your heart. โค

Yes honey, nothing is permanent in this world. People do leave. ๐Ÿ™‚ just that some stays longer than expected, not in your lives, but in your heart. ๐Ÿ™‚ In fact, some are there forever. 😁

Lately, it has been a pretty challenging to express the mind and heart. I’m always in a dilemma, muddled between thoughts and emotions. Someone once told me that the mind and heart does not latch on to chemistry thus love is painful because though you know it’s disastrous, you can’t keep yourself from feeling it. ๐Ÿ˜‰ and as much as it hurts, you can’t negate the wonderful moments which turns out to be life’s greatest memories. ๐Ÿ˜€

I’ll miss you. I’ll miss us. Thank you for being a great spot. Thank you for coming into my life and teaching me to endure the worst pain of all. Most importantly, thank you so much for loving me unconditionally. I wished, yes, WISHED – and not wish because I know it’ll never happen in this lifetime – that the situation was a whole lot different. Maybe we would have made it through happily. ๐Ÿ™‚

Oh well, …. life goes on. ๐Ÿ™‚ keep smiling to curtain the way it sores, pierces, gashes and aches inside. ๐Ÿ™‚ ๐Ÿ™‚

She Left Her Cocoon and ..

Hey loves,

Its been some time eh? I’ve been pretty busy managing both work and studies that I hardly have the urge to pen down my thoughts anywhere, besides Twitter. ๐Ÿ˜‰ Follow me to get in touch with my ongoing craps! ๐Ÿ˜€ Because there’s just too much to say and twitting isn’t sufficient, let me bring you to my thoughts of the day..

After hiding in my cocoon for nearly a year, I’ve evolved into a beautiful butterfly, flying among the flowers, sipping sweet nectar, realizing that not all flowers are freshly blooming as they may seem from a distance. See, my imagination is taking me a little too far.. :p Oh well, its not a bad thing ey.. Sometimes it’s good to let your mind wander.. Haha.

So yeah, I’ve been single for 10 months now, laying low without allowing anyone, except my close friends to invade my territory. In these months, I learned to guard my heart, I learned to evaluate my actions, both right and wrong without anyone pressuring me and change where its necessary, I learned to make decisions on my own, I learned the beauty of being single, I learned to be myself and most importantly, I learned to live WITHOUT a man. And it wasn’t that bad after all. I’m proud to say that I’ve learned the true meaning of independence and I’ve build my own foundation to lead my life. I realize who I am, not absolutely but significantly. ๐Ÿ™‚

And finally, when I decide to leave my cocoon, I let myself fly among the flowers, I realize that I could precisely separate the fresh flowers from the not-so-fresh ones! The moment a guy approaches me, through a short conversation, I could certainly predict his intentions. No, I’m not a psychic, neither am I jumping to conclusions, but somethings are just pretty obvious, you don’t have to be a psychic to tell. When a guy says, “What kind of things have you done with your ex?’, “How hot are you?”, “If we’re both in a silent place alone, what would you do me?” and if you play along the lines, he’ll assume that you’re interested to jump on bed with him. And there are also the sweethearts, all they want is to get to know you, they ask you all sorts of questions but they don’t hint anything personal. I love the latter, of course. It’ll definitely makes things pretty comfortable between us.

To be fair, I usually give a benefit of doubt but when I can no longer tolerate, I ignore, completely ignore. And if this person still bugs me, I suppose he’ll see the worst side of me.

Dear boy, guy, man, …

It is evidently not sexy to see a woman as a sex machine. She’s precious as a gem. She have got a heart. She’s a God sent gift on planet earth. Don’t treat her like trash. Its a huge turn off to ask her the type of questions mentioned above. You ‘probably’ meant it at your best interest but any girls, well, most girls will take it the way I did. Yes, please call me ancient if that makes you happy, but I’m a woman with dignity and pride, there’s no way I’m giving myself to anyone whom don’t deserve it. Get it? So pleassseee.. Don’t give me a reason to show my violence. :p

Signing off. ๐Ÿ™‚

Welcome Me ;)

Hey people!

Welcome me to the WordPress blogging world! ๐Ÿ™‚ I heard its really interesting in here.. The sole reason I’m here! ๐Ÿ˜‰

I’ve loads and loads to say but I don’t think this is the right time as I’m at work! Pretty bored I tell you. Well, I shall give a short intro about myself yea?

No. 1, call me Pinky! Not gonna reveal my real name here and I’m pretty sure more than half you wouldn’t be able to pronounce it correctly. Speaking from experienceee… Haha! I’m turning 23 on the 9th of October.. Take note yeah as it is a few days away.. ๐Ÿ˜‰ I’m officially done with my degree (B.A. Mass Communication) and currently undergoing my internship at IKEA, Malaysia.. Yes, I’m a Malaysian and proud to be one. The foooooddddd! Haha!! ๐Ÿ˜€

I’ve been blogging since the end of 2009. I have two accounts on Blogger, Angel’s Rose & Ignited Angel! Be sure to check them out. It’s mostly about me ranting.. I hold a degree in that.. :p I didn’t really updated Ignited Angel as I had been going through a tough time in life, a very tough time. There were more downs than ups, sadly. But things seems to be falling in place lately.. Not perfect but just fine. And I’m satisfied with just that for I know that God plan’s are far greater than mine!

Oh, I forgot.. I’m single by the way. :p Single but NOT available! I just went through a break up two months ago and I’m still NOT over it. I’m trying to get over it, really.. I’m TRYING! Time heals. ๐Ÿ™‚ So will I.. ๐Ÿ™‚

Aite then, I better get going before my boss spots me blogging.. I have a lot to say, maybe I’ll blog again, soon.. Yeah?

Take care. God bless!