5.36 AM / 05.03.2016

It’s a despair to have a heart so fragile.
You shall protect, not stab.
It’s a reality that you’ve been gone for a while.
But you’ve left her memories, not hate.



Mind and Heart – No Chemistry

I smiled through the confusion, laughed through the euphoria, weeped through the agony… I surpassed it all because more than I want to, I had to… life’s an adventure after all. 😄

Time passes, situation turn overs, people changes … but love never fades. I trust that each and every person that comes into your lives comes in it for a reason and there’s no way they’ll depart without leaving a footprint in your heart. ❀

Yes honey, nothing is permanent in this world. People do leave. πŸ™‚ just that some stays longer than expected, not in your lives, but in your heart. πŸ™‚ In fact, some are there forever. 😁

Lately, it has been a pretty challenging to express the mind and heart. I’m always in a dilemma, muddled between thoughts and emotions. Someone once told me that the mind and heart does not latch on to chemistry thus love is painful because though you know it’s disastrous, you can’t keep yourself from feeling it. πŸ˜‰ and as much as it hurts, you can’t negate the wonderful moments which turns out to be life’s greatest memories. πŸ˜€

I’ll miss you. I’ll miss us. Thank you for being a great spot. Thank you for coming into my life and teaching me to endure the worst pain of all. Most importantly, thank you so much for loving me unconditionally. I wished, yes, WISHED – and not wish because I know it’ll never happen in this lifetime – that the situation was a whole lot different. Maybe we would have made it through happily. πŸ™‚

Oh well, …. life goes on. πŸ™‚ keep smiling to curtain the way it sores, pierces, gashes and aches inside. πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚

Que Sera, Sera

Gosh! It has been ages! :/ The strangeΒ urge of jolting down my wired thoughts, puzzled mind and jumbled feelingsΒ FINALLY resided after contemplating for months. Too much have been going on in my plate and to my greatest dismay, blogging had been the final resort. I couldn’t get myself to rant it out here, sadly… but well, I guess one can’t run too far away resorting on a temporary harbor to vent out the sentiments. Thus, here I am, hopefully back for a longer time this time around.

I genuinely missed writing. I did. I believe I should make it a point to spare a little time to write, at least one a week? πŸ™‚ I shall try.

So… What’s up? How’ve you been doing? I hope all’s well. I’m pretty much good too, or at least I assume I am. πŸ™‚ Every day have been a new day for me – creating new opportunities, delivering unique experiences, forming meaningful memories – not forgetting the self-enduring smile and life changing tears. It have been good, innit? πŸ˜‰

On a side note, did I fall in love? Hahaha! I fell in love every day. πŸ™‚ I shall leave it to your imagination! πŸ˜€ And of course with love come tears, tears of contentment and tears of sorrow. Life’s never a predictable journey and love is definitely blind. Situations comes along in the most accidental manner, leaving you dumbfounded – letting time decide the outcome.

Have you ever tried fighting for someone or something so persistently knowing that no matter how hard you struggle, there’s no possible way you can turnaround and claim victory? I did. And of course I lost in my very own battle. πŸ™‚ There’s only so much one can ride out in life. One can’t bear the brunt for too long. I eventually resolved to sit back and acknowledge the truth, the reality and repressing the feelings by soothing myself with my favourite line of all time, “que sera, sera” (whatever will be, will be). πŸ™‚

Don’t worry, I’m still smiling through it all. πŸ™‚ πŸ™‚ The agony is discreetly concealed behind the curve that sets everything straight. πŸ™‚ Que sera, sera but I shall carry each and every piece of memory to the end of time. πŸ™‚

Fixing The Broken Pieces..

Who was she kidding when she said she was over him? She knew deep in her heart, she wasn’t.. She always tried to assure to herself that she’ve moved a step ahead in life but there were days she failed.. miserably.

She’s still fixing the broken pieces of her heart.. her life. And no one will ever understand that cos she’s good at pretending that everything is fine and dandy. Haha.. Life’s good.


While she’s still tryna fix the broken pieces, she’s trying her best not to neglect her priorities. Pray for her. She needs all the positive vibes and guardian angels to protect her.. πŸ™‚

God bless.

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You Just Gotta Let It Be…

As the loneliness crept in, she wish she had someone to brighten up her soul. She felt she needed someone to rely upon, someone she can vent out her frustrations to, someone who could be there for her at all time.. 😦 And that’s when she realized that she is quite dependent to a certain extend and of course, this wasn’t pleasant for her. She had goals in her life and being attached to this mindset would not help her achieve those dreams.

But she’s a human after all. She can’t hide her feelings. She wants to be belonged to someone special in this cruel world. She wants to feel rejuvenated with the love of that special someone. She miss giving out love, care and attention to that special one.

And no, she’s not desperate. She won’t go around seeking for love. She won’t go around ranting that she wished she have the man of her dreams in her life. She’ll go with the flow. She’ll let time decide. She’ll concentrate on her goals but she’ll also give a space to let her emotions flow. She’ll try to smile always but let her heart cry when it feels like it.

She suppose, that’s life. You just gotta let it be. Everything will fall in place, someday, she hope.