Fact 4 of 60

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I’m ordinarily a thinker, hence I think about almost anything and everything on a daily basis. All it takes is one trigger factor, and there you go, my mind will do what it does best, think.

Lately, I’ve been reflecting a lot about life in general. Why are we here? I agree, to be a healthy living soul on this planet by itself is Gods greatest gift. But what is our purpose to be here when we are tied by societal norms? Ask any individual, there’s so much they would want to do with their lives but there’s only so much they can do. And yes, we’re suppose to be thankful and appreciate the way we live our lives because that’s the way it was destined for us. But what if the only obstacle that’s in my way to live the life I’d love is a thin thread of absurd principles set by my parents supporting ludicrous social norms? You’re encircled in this peculiarity if you often hear your parents objecting your desires with a simple sentence or two, “No, you can’t be doing this/that because it is not practical to us. What will the relatives say? What will people say? Please don’t tarnish our dignity by executing your thoughts.” And there you go, you know nothing’s ever gonna convince them thus all you can do is sit in one corner and cry your lungs out for not getting the support or permission you desiderate, throw tantrums for a day or two to vent out your frustrations, question why is life unfair to you, and then you’ve got no choice but to move on with life. 🙂

I’m uncertain if the above applies to people from all heritage, but I’m more than assertive that it occurs to most females from an Asian Indian background. Life can’t get more conservative than it already is, trust me on this one. Cmon society, just because we are brown and born with boobs and vagina instead of a penis, do we have to be tied with a set of uptight principles? Are our lives all about growing up with restrictions from the parents, getting educated (that’s if you’re lucky), getting married before we hit the big 30 (otherwise you’ll be deemed old or maybe infertile), taking care of the husband and in laws needs, giving birth to children (really conservative in laws will demand for a boy), raise the child, grow old and say goodbye…?

I personally want to achieve more than this! I want to travel the world, I want to experience adventurous bungee jumping, skydiving, diving, etc., I want to live with the poor and experience their lifestyle, … there’s so much I want to do to test my boundaries and venture far beyond my capabilities. After all, sky’s the limit. 🙂

On that account, I’ve finally decided that my first step will be to take up swimming classes meanwhile I’m unemployed. Secondly, I’m more than determined to look for a job in whatever field possible just to be able to live independently and most importantly, gain experience and knowledge. I’m aware that I’m not capable to break the framework that have been set for generations, but I’m willing to take the baby steps to be the best for myself. I’m sick of the restrictions, I’m suffocated by the restraints, I want to do what my heart desires but my hands are tied, hence I can only do the best possible for myself within the wreathe of vague customs and traditions. However, I trust that my rise today will set me free someday.

Wow! That’s a lengthy one for a question with six words. 😉 Toodles!

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Of Rants And The Amazing Weekend! :D

Its raining almost everyday but as much as I love the cold chilly weather, the rain kinda messes things up. Pffttt!

Now, I don’t know why am I here without any inspiration. I feel like writing but I have no fuckin idea of the topic. Sighhhssss! :/ Why oh why? Why me? Aite, I shall just rant whatever that crosses my mind and pleasseee forgive me if it bores the hell outta you.

Its 6.30pm and the office is half empty already. I wish I could leave too.. 😦 I don’t feel like heading home but I wouldn’t mind hanging out somewhere just to chill. But.. but… chilling means eating and eating means fat. :/ I’m on a one meal a day diet just so you know. Haha! I feel fat, I swear. People around me are like, you shouldn’t be dieting, you’ve got a nice body, size 0 isn’t sexy and whatsoever but it doesn’t deters me a single bit cos I know I’m fat. 😦 Well, not really really fat but chubby and I don’t like the chubby-ness. Hehe.

But I’m also hungry. My stomach is calling for a good meal. What shall I do? 😦 If I don’t eat tonight, I’ll have to wait for lunch tomorrow to eat a proper meal. :/ I hate temptations. I hope I’ll be able to control them. *fingers crossed*

Since I’m done ranting about my weight, I guess I shall say something a little more interesting.. Okay, I had a splendid weekend with my bestie. 🙂 She invited me for Carlsberg Deepavali dinner at Shah Alam. It was a good night with free flow beers on the table. Haha. 😀 Her bro in law is working in Carlsberg Malaysia, heaven! Haha. I shall take a picture of my Carlsberg collections and post it up pretty soon. No beer cans, sorry but I have plenty goodies.

Back to my dinner story, it was a good night with good food. I was there with Geetha, Bhavani (her sis), her brother and of course, the bro-in-law, Joshua! While everyone was busy queuing up and digging for food at the buffet table, Geetha and I was busy drinking our freshly drafted Carlsberg. Haha! 😀 And Joshua had to spoil our magical moments. 😦 He called us up the stage for some game session. :/ And thanks to our two mugs of beer, I rocked the stage. 😉

There were 5 people in one group, of course Geetha and I was separated. We then had to perform according to the music beat, each picking up a roll of a drummer, a pianist, a dancer, a guitarist and a singer. Since every other member of my group decided to opt out for the lame ones :p, I decided to be a dancer. 😉 😉 Hehehehehehe! Of course I was praying hard for a good song. 😉 Thank God they played Party Rock Anthem and I seriously have no idea what got into me but I danced like there was no tomorrow and to my surprise, everyone was screaming their lungs out. Most likely because they were drunk.. Hehe! This was once in a lifetime experience only God knows why I didn’t suffered from stage fright. So proud of myself baby! ❤

Andddddddd…. WE WON a set of speakers! 😀 You have no idea what I had to endure after that game session. All these guys were disturbing me, some insisted me to dance with them, and thanks to Joshua again, they knew my name. Pfft. I wasn’t a tad bit worried cos Joshua’s colleagues were keeping an eye on us and we knew that we were secured in his accompany. I had a great deal of fun that night. A moment with the bestie that can’t be replaced with anything on earth, ever!

Oh! Let me give you a hint on how to be popular within a night.. JUST ACT STUPID on the stage in front hundreds of people and you’re sure to gain attention. Haha! 😀 That’s what I did and it worked. LOL. And before anyone gets the idea to screw me up over this sentence, NO! I didn’t go up the stage purposely for FAME! It was all accidental hence I’ll call it the “ACCIDENTAL FAME”. LOL.

Aite then, I’m done! Times up! Outta office now.. See you. 🙂