When Memories Fool The Disturbed Mind..

A very Happy Deepavali/Diwali to those who celebrates.. 🙂 May this festival of lights rejoice you prosperously through the year ahead. God bless. 🙂

I didn’t celebrate at all this year. Family is back in hometown and I miss them to bits! 😦 I usually go to my bestie’s house every single year but her dad passed away recently and she ain’t celebrating this year.. So here am I, all alone, dreading each second that passes by with nothing but memories of yesterday…

I took a bold step before 12 midnight yesterday hoping to feel a whole load better in conjuction with the festival of lights but things seems to be stagnant and I’m feeling a whole load worst! 😦

After listening to that very same voice I used to hear before every night before I go to sleep, the pain in my heart is unbearable. How can someone who was your everything yesterday seem like a stranger to you today? How can every single moment change in a flick of seconds? Sigh. No one have answers to my question, not even God. All I know is that God have planned everything and I’m just living my life according to His rhythm..

I don’t know whether I’m just bluntly silly to believe those words compared to the obvious actions or my heart is just toooo weak to feel nothing but pain.. I wish there was a delete button for my brains and heart, just press that button and every memories goes to recycle bin.. Life would have been so much easier, don’t you think so?

Haizzzz.. I can go on ranting if I choose to but I’m sure it’ll bore the hell outta you. I know I have to put a full stop to all that I’m doin now and as much as I want to, I don’t think it is possible in the nearest time. Its gonna be four months after the break up in a few days and I’m still where I was.. I did a few things to sooth myself but my heart still holds those memories tightly.

Note to self: Sweetheart, learn to let go.. If he comes back as a changed person and treats you well, he is yours.. If he doesn’t, it was definitely not meant to be.. God sent him to your life to learn the necessary. You’ve learnt your lesson and now its time to move on.. Concentrate on your career and future. Leave the past to where it belongs cos its the past after all. Good luck, baby!

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Of Rants And The Amazing Weekend! :D

Its raining almost everyday but as much as I love the cold chilly weather, the rain kinda messes things up. Pffttt!

Now, I don’t know why am I here without any inspiration. I feel like writing but I have no fuckin idea of the topic. Sighhhssss! :/ Why oh why? Why me? Aite, I shall just rant whatever that crosses my mind and pleasseee forgive me if it bores the hell outta you.

Its 6.30pm and the office is half empty already. I wish I could leave too.. 😦 I don’t feel like heading home but I wouldn’t mind hanging out somewhere just to chill. But.. but… chilling means eating and eating means fat. :/ I’m on a one meal a day diet just so you know. Haha! I feel fat, I swear. People around me are like, you shouldn’t be dieting, you’ve got a nice body, size 0 isn’t sexy and whatsoever but it doesn’t deters me a single bit cos I know I’m fat. 😦 Well, not really really fat but chubby and I don’t like the chubby-ness. Hehe.

But I’m also hungry. My stomach is calling for a good meal. What shall I do? 😦 If I don’t eat tonight, I’ll have to wait for lunch tomorrow to eat a proper meal. :/ I hate temptations. I hope I’ll be able to control them. *fingers crossed*

Since I’m done ranting about my weight, I guess I shall say something a little more interesting.. Okay, I had a splendid weekend with my bestie. 🙂 She invited me for Carlsberg Deepavali dinner at Shah Alam. It was a good night with free flow beers on the table. Haha. 😀 Her bro in law is working in Carlsberg Malaysia, heaven! Haha. I shall take a picture of my Carlsberg collections and post it up pretty soon. No beer cans, sorry but I have plenty goodies.

Back to my dinner story, it was a good night with good food. I was there with Geetha, Bhavani (her sis), her brother and of course, the bro-in-law, Joshua! While everyone was busy queuing up and digging for food at the buffet table, Geetha and I was busy drinking our freshly drafted Carlsberg. Haha! 😀 And Joshua had to spoil our magical moments. 😦 He called us up the stage for some game session. :/ And thanks to our two mugs of beer, I rocked the stage. 😉

There were 5 people in one group, of course Geetha and I was separated. We then had to perform according to the music beat, each picking up a roll of a drummer, a pianist, a dancer, a guitarist and a singer. Since every other member of my group decided to opt out for the lame ones :p, I decided to be a dancer. 😉 😉 Hehehehehehe! Of course I was praying hard for a good song. 😉 Thank God they played Party Rock Anthem and I seriously have no idea what got into me but I danced like there was no tomorrow and to my surprise, everyone was screaming their lungs out. Most likely because they were drunk.. Hehe! This was once in a lifetime experience only God knows why I didn’t suffered from stage fright. So proud of myself baby! ❤

Andddddddd…. WE WON a set of speakers! 😀 You have no idea what I had to endure after that game session. All these guys were disturbing me, some insisted me to dance with them, and thanks to Joshua again, they knew my name. Pfft. I wasn’t a tad bit worried cos Joshua’s colleagues were keeping an eye on us and we knew that we were secured in his accompany. I had a great deal of fun that night. A moment with the bestie that can’t be replaced with anything on earth, ever!

Oh! Let me give you a hint on how to be popular within a night.. JUST ACT STUPID on the stage in front hundreds of people and you’re sure to gain attention. Haha! 😀 That’s what I did and it worked. LOL. And before anyone gets the idea to screw me up over this sentence, NO! I didn’t go up the stage purposely for FAME! It was all accidental hence I’ll call it the “ACCIDENTAL FAME”. LOL.

Aite then, I’m done! Times up! Outta office now.. See you. 🙂