Why Law?

The head is spinning. The eyes is straining. The body is aching. Would you agree with me if I tell you that assignments are killing? :p

Sometimes, I really wonder, what on earth was I thinking when I took up law? Did I take it up out of passion, or did I do it to fulfill my dad’s dream or was to prove them who said I was not capable of doing it wrong? Yes, I’m a reader but I can’t read textbooks consisting 1000 pages on facts! :/

Just a brief introduction, I’ve completed my first degree in B.A. Mass Communications majoring in Marketing Communication. I’m yet to officially graduate as my former dumb ass college decided to delay the convocation this year but yeah, I’m sorta done! And without giving myself a break, I took up law as a second degree almost immediately. I was afraid that I’ll lose the umpphh of studying if I procrastinate any longer.

But today, I’m thinking, was it a hasty decision after all?

I had too much confidence in myself that I’ll be able to manage it all.. Both work and studies and the same time but of course I was ABSOLUTELY wrong! After barely two months, I decided to give up with work and concentrate on my studies wholly.But what does this proves? I rather sacrifice my career in a multinational company for a LLB in hand?

Honestly, I have no castles build in the air for my future.. I’m just living life with the flow and gathering strength each and every day to get through any challenges that gets in my way. I’ve always wanted to stay away from everyone in my very own space and completing my final year in UK will definitely turn the wishes to reality!

I suppose there’s no point to find out the reasons of me taking up law because as much as I know about myself, the passion is within me. I’m the type who always wanna know it all and what else would be better to have the law at your fingertips over the years? 😉

Determination is the key to success. No point looking back and reminiscing the decision taken, just gotta be determined to complete another challenge in life. 🙂 LLB, here I come!

Back to assignment ey.. 😀

Hypocrites & Happiness! :D

How do you deal with hypocrites? Ignore and walk miles away.. 🙂

Personally, I hate them and if I could, I’d do everything to get rid of them from this world.. at least the world will be a better place to live without them. But I’m not invested with such powers hence I shall just stick to the first option. 😉

If you were in my shoes, how would you feel when you realize that a bunch of them are practically ignoring you? They prefer doing things in a group while you’re not there? They don’t make you feel a part of them again? I felt terrible but it didn’t bother me too much. You wanna know what ACTUALLY bothered me? The fact that they try to be nice when they need to get somethings done. What’s up with human nature lah? Haih.

I’m glad that I’ll be isolated to my own pace next week onwards. I’m best at ignoring people, especially those who don’t match my league. And of course I’ll choose to opt to shit I do the best. IGNOREE!

Okay. I’m done ranting.

On a brighter note, I got back my car. It’s perfect now.. 🙂 And nothing beats the feeling of driving your very own car. Haha. I sincerely appreciate the uncle (my dad’s friend) who borrowed me his car while my car was at the hospital last week. 🙂 Life was so much easier with it.

Aaahhhh… And and.. Did I tell you that I got an extension for my assignments? I was so happy then but I’m freaking out again cos I’m not done with Common Law. Submission is on the 1st of April. Oh.. On the BRIGHTESTTTT note, I’m on leave tomorrow and Friday morning.. 😀 Yay! A couple of hours without hypocrisy. :p And by hook or crook, I’ll get CLR done before I return to work on Friday evening! 🙂

Neways, sorry for the non-informational post. Toodles!

Decided?

Tough month ahead! *dieeeessss*

I’ve got 4, yes FOUR assignments to hand up consecutively from the 25th of March onwards. Seriously! No idea how am I gonna manage this but not that I have a choice. :/ Mum is suggesting me to opt for that which matters more to me and I’m seriously considering the idea. I don’t think I can handle this anymore! 😦

Studying and working is tough, very tough. I feel I spent half of my day in the office and it bores the shit outta me. I rather be studying Criminal Law or Contract Law. Haha. I’ve got a few option laid ahead of me and yeah, for once, I hope God will have some mercy on me. One after another challenge throughout these two month, I need a break!

Yes God, you won’t give me what I can’t handle but please stop pushing it over the limit. I can’t handle anymore, I can’t. I’m already struggling with my studies and working 10 hours a day is beyond craziness. Please God. Let me go this time? Give me the strength to choose the best for me.. Can?

Thank you God!

When 24 Hours Is Not Enough For You!

TGIF!!! Yes, yes.. You got that right! Thank God Its Friday!! A day that I’ll look forward to for the next few months, perhaps years! For some unidentifiable reasons, I’m demotivated to work. No interest. Period.

I wonder, did I lose interest in this line after stepping into law? Or is it because I was on a month break that it bores the shit outta me to stare at the laptop all day long? I wonder. But no matter what the reasons are, I feel extremely fucked up. All I wanna do is laze around without committing to anything, except for my studies. Gosh!

Okay. I suppose I’m feeling this way because I’m anticipating for the long weekend. This is my first week at work after a month, what do you expect? :p I hope I’ll be energized next week onwards, or the week after next. I don’t have a choice but to look at everything in a positive perspective – errr.. to motivate myself? 🙂

Oh yeah, my biggest challenge for the past one week is to make decisions! Being a part of the team, I was told that I’ll have to contribute ideas, etc, etc, etc and I’ll have to develop leadership skills – ability to make decisions. Okay, to be very honest, I personally believe that I do have leadership skills but I can’t practice it at work for the fear that I may go wrong and cause a massive mistake.

I’m in the midst of trying my very best to develop this skill and I believe I’ll succeed within time. As of now, I noticed that I’m still quite dependent on my supervisor’s green light, I decide and get her approval before proceeding. 🙂 I realized that an intern’s task is limited in scope but when you’re really working out there, things are pretty much different! That’s when you understand the meaning of ‘independence’ and take yourself to a whole new level.

The toughest challenge of my life now is TIME CONSTRAINT! I have loads of things to be done but I don’t have the time to complete it all. As a law student, I can’t afford reading the whole bulk at the very last minute. I have to read and study consistently, which means EVERYDAY! 24 hours a day is certainly NOT enough! I’m at work for 11 hours (includes traveling), I sleep a maximum of 6 hours a day and approximately 2 hours or so to bath, etc. Now, with only 4 to 5 remaining hours in a day, especially after a long day, don’t you think its more than difficult to concentrate on my studies? And with 4 bulky subjects to read, hell no, 4 hours a day is NOT enough at all!

I wouldn’t deny that is one of the reasons I’m developing this love-hate relationship with my career. I wanna concentrate on law and score well but I also need MONEY to survive. Haha. Well, I suppose that as usual, in life, you just gotta make choices since there’s no way you’ll get all you want. Think wisely and choose the most important, the decision that matters the most to you. 🙂 Easier said that done, but yeah, don’t be too harsh on yourself. 🙂

I’m gonna try my best to manage my time wisely and work both my studies and career out. Yes, you can call me lifeless now but if I happen to succeed in both, then we shall see who’s lifeless in the next 3 years. 😉 Hope all goes well or I may have to make a decision of my life. Haih!

P/S- Did I tell you that I hardly go out for lunch with my colleagues cos I’m usually busy studying in the office? Lifeless much? :p

Gong Xi Fa Chai! Happy Chinese New Year!

Toodles! 😀

Here Comes The Rants!

Damnnnnn! I hate working! 😦 I don’t wanna go to work tomorrow. Get that?! I fuckin wanna sleep my ass off and wake up whatever time my body decides and just laze around!! But I don’t have a fuckin choice because one, I signed a fuckin contract.. Two, I need money and three, I gotta learn to take up respinsibilities. Screw this shit man!

Now that was a dramatic introduction.. Hahaha! Its a blunder to handle both work and studies at the same time. I’m tryin my best to be as discipline but discipline and me are miles apart. Lol.

Lately, I’ve been in this fuckin emotional turmoil that I can’t reveal even if I choose to. To fall in love feels great but to get out of it kinda sucks the soul outta your body. I probably dug my own hole this time and I gotta bear the consequences. Shoots! Let’s not get into that. Haih!

Yes, whining away wouldn’t help a single bit hence I should just motivate myself, pick up all the broken pieces and move on! 🙂 Work for the experience and money while study to pursue my passion. 😉

Toodles!! 😀

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