When Memories Fool The Disturbed Mind..

A very Happy Deepavali/Diwali to those who celebrates.. 🙂 May this festival of lights rejoice you prosperously through the year ahead. God bless. 🙂

I didn’t celebrate at all this year. Family is back in hometown and I miss them to bits! 😦 I usually go to my bestie’s house every single year but her dad passed away recently and she ain’t celebrating this year.. So here am I, all alone, dreading each second that passes by with nothing but memories of yesterday…

I took a bold step before 12 midnight yesterday hoping to feel a whole load better in conjuction with the festival of lights but things seems to be stagnant and I’m feeling a whole load worst! 😦

After listening to that very same voice I used to hear before every night before I go to sleep, the pain in my heart is unbearable. How can someone who was your everything yesterday seem like a stranger to you today? How can every single moment change in a flick of seconds? Sigh. No one have answers to my question, not even God. All I know is that God have planned everything and I’m just living my life according to His rhythm..

I don’t know whether I’m just bluntly silly to believe those words compared to the obvious actions or my heart is just toooo weak to feel nothing but pain.. I wish there was a delete button for my brains and heart, just press that button and every memories goes to recycle bin.. Life would have been so much easier, don’t you think so?

Haizzzz.. I can go on ranting if I choose to but I’m sure it’ll bore the hell outta you. I know I have to put a full stop to all that I’m doin now and as much as I want to, I don’t think it is possible in the nearest time. Its gonna be four months after the break up in a few days and I’m still where I was.. I did a few things to sooth myself but my heart still holds those memories tightly.

Note to self: Sweetheart, learn to let go.. If he comes back as a changed person and treats you well, he is yours.. If he doesn’t, it was definitely not meant to be.. God sent him to your life to learn the necessary. You’ve learnt your lesson and now its time to move on.. Concentrate on your career and future. Leave the past to where it belongs cos its the past after all. Good luck, baby!

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